I have been a fairly active person most of my life. I love to dance, I love to box, I love to jump around and be crazy, rugby and soccer are my favorite sports to play and I ALWAYS am down to learn another sport!
For the longest time, most of my life if not all, I have been over weight. I have a very strong body; the only thing is… it is hidden under quite a bit of fat. I’m thinking the best way forward from here is to acknowledge some issues I’ve had and admit my fears. Quite honestly, I have been afraid to admit certain fears, because I know they are border line, if not completely unhealthy.
Acknowledgements:
- My life style is not as healthy as it could be.
- My sleep schedule is pretty regular, but every once and a while I sleep too little or too much.
- I eat out almost every meal and they are seldom what I would consider healthy meals.
- Occasionally I will drink heavily, but as I do not believe that I am out of hand with this, I am not too worried with it.
- I drink WAY too much diet coke.
- My family recently began the journey of making better health decisions. Out of five of us only one is at a healthy weight.
- Reasons my parents began changing their diet is because of both parents having increasing medical issues.
- My siblings and I were raised with a healthy diet guideline at all, but despite this, what my siblings, parents and I do from here with our diets is our own choosing. My parents fed me when I was younger, I now feed me and I am now responsible for every bite that goes in my mouth.
Admitting my fears:
I hate to say these, but I feel like I need to be open and honest in order to move forward.
- The idea of being fat terrifies me. At 5’3, I weigh in at 162 lbs with an hour glass figure and at a size 10/12. The smallest size I have ever been is a size 8. While I am by no means tiny, I am definitely not huge. I see really big people and the idea of being their size scares me. I don’t want to appear that unhealthy, I don’t want to be unhealthy; I want to look in the mirror and love me. I don’t know that I could look in the mirror and love me past 170 lbs, so I feel any bigger and I’d have several other issues.
- I am uncomfortable in my body, I feel like I am too big and that if I lost weight many of my issues would be resolved. Issues like job satisfaction, financial issues, self image issues, etc.
- I’m afraid that if I don’t get my health in gear now that I will have a lot of health issues that are genetic later on, i.e.: diabetes, high blood pressure, heart disease, depression, and so on.
- As it stands now, I am hypoglycemic, my triglycerides count is too high, last I was in the E.R. my blood pressure was too high, but two weeks later it was too low.
Goals:
- Lose weight and become better toned. I’m thinking 150 lbs toned and hopefully a size 6.
- Get my blood pressure, triglycerides and cholesterol under control and at a normal rate.
- Take the stairs more, without getting winded!
- Run 5ks and maybe some marathon eventually!
- Get back involved with dance, yoga and sports
- ULTIMATE GOAL: What I am TRULY trying to accomplish is becoming a healthier me. One that has a long life ahead of her, full of options and adventures.
Where I am at now:
- Sitting at a job that I moderately like
- Trying to determine what I am going to be when I grow up
- Wondering when the hell I am going to get married
- Restarting week 7 of P90x classic due to some rest time to heal and be a wimp
- The proud owner of insanity, I have not yet tried this program.
- The desire and excitement over several other programs that Beachbody offers with hopes of improving my health even more
- Getting to employ a 12 steps program in regards to eating healthier.
I don’t think I can do this. I KNOW I CAN.
It’s time to request the support I need from friends and family. And it is time to not only bring it physically, but BRING IT with my diet as well!
